I had the strangest dream last night. I was on a roller coaster. I was on a single car and there were other cars following behind,but my car was going on it's own at incredibly fast speeds. It was more of a race and I was pulling ahead by a longshot. The strange thing is,I wasn't in control of how fast my car was going. I was swirling and spiraling through this incredible course. Sometimes it was dark,sometimes it was light,sometimes I was under water and at other points I was spiraling down in the middle of a multilevel mall.
It was an intense dream to say the least.

That dream kind of pinpointed all of my feelings though as crazy as that sounds. I feel like I'm swirling around at ridiculous speeds and none of it's under my control. At times,it's fun and I feel carefree and at other times it's dark and it's hard to breathe.

I've realized that I've built up a wall over some time and now it's slowly being chipped down and that scares the heck out of me. I've become comfortable having it surround me. I think that it's time for this process to begin.

So,here I go.
Spiraling and swirling.