Are God and fate the same thing or are they separate things that work together? If they work together, are they under His plan or are they a part of His plan or is fate a part of his plan that you play the lead role in?

Those are all big questions that have been playing over and over in my mind like a broken record. It seems like every time that I think I get a glimpse of the answer, another path beckons me to blaze down it in search of an all too dim,twinkling light that we call hope.

This year has blown my mind. 

Is that the intent of this blazing path? To leave me stupefied? To leave me astonished and astounded? To leave me in awe of Him? To leave me on my knees and hand over my torch and hatchet and to follow Him and leave myself in the hands of Him?

Or is it that He is the one that is pushing me forth on this untraveled path? Is this His intent? Is He using this to strengthen me? To teach me? Is it that through all of these cuts from briars or through the dirt that stains my tired feet,that I will ultimately gain?

Whatever the case,I know one thing for sure. He plays a part in this journey. He is the ultimate director in this movie of life that has no specific genre. It is my part and the part of the ones that I have met along the way that I am unsure of. 

I guess that I will continue on in search of that glimmering light.